Thank you for sharing this, I heavily relate to almost all of it. I wasn't expecting a lot of the positive ways grief would change me. In the early days I was terrified that I'd be jaded and sad and angry forever. But I've also found myself appreciating the small things more, living more flexibly, and letting things go more easily. It's still hard as hell, obviously. But experiencing death so closely does give you a glimpse behind the curtain, both for better and worse.
Thank you for sharing this, I heavily relate to almost all of it. I wasn't expecting a lot of the positive ways grief would change me. In the early days I was terrified that I'd be jaded and sad and angry forever. But I've also found myself appreciating the small things more, living more flexibly, and letting things go more easily. It's still hard as hell, obviously. But experiencing death so closely does give you a glimpse behind the curtain, both for better and worse.
It's puzzling to somehow find beauty in the midst of unimaginable tragedy, eh? Glad to have found you in this cyberspace. Sending you a big hug :)
Likewise ♥️♥️